How To Shortcut In Life

I just lost my job. Even driving in my car I don't know where am I going because I'm lost with no direction. How pity I am. How to go out to face peoples if my friends know I am not working.

That day I went to a food court to have a dirty lunch due the environment over there is very dirty. There was an old man always talk very loud at the place. I felt that he is very pity because I always saw him walking around by himself & the distance he used to walk wasn't short. That day he was selling some "jackpot" tickets, he dint come to me but i walk to him to buy it, I told him i want 3 n im very confident to get this 3 for free if u got the last 2 number accurate, the true is i really get it for free so the old man free me another 3 again which i have to scratch the number area again this time i hope i wont got it because i dont want to win the old man ticket haha, finally the another 3 i dint get it right. After bought this ticket i very confuse because 27th Jan 2013 they will show the result. I dont know whether I will get it or not. If i got it i will suddenly ends all my fight in my life. I very paranoid as well. It also possible for me to win this huge million million moneys, I start to worry how i go to get the money on that day nowadays so many robberies. I wonder whether i should buy the 3 millions house which i visited that day. I very scared this money will ruin my life by just driving sport cars & drinking cordon bleu everynight. Im going to be a million dollar baby. Maybe i should start to see what cars & dogs i wanted to buy from today on. haha

I will start a new job soon but i have another job to interview on the coming day. Also another dilemma. If I stay with this job i'll be in the same field which i will see all my old buddies. But if I switch to the new company successfully everybody will be calling me manager but i will lost all my old buddies. But if the pay is attractive my heart will ask me to go because what i work for is money nowadays due to high commitment leave me no choice.

As a conclusion
Be a million dollar baby i will become a very bad n useless guy. N all the fight will be ended immediately. All my force will be ended.... how????

Be a manager i will lost all my old buddies which we used to have a lot of fun. Do i have to give up them because of status & money..

Anyway everything is out of my control. Just leave it to my father from sky above.

Dont be so serious I am ok & im joking.

Journey To The Christmas

reflection

I had written this in season of Advent. Lately I was busy finding a new career and settling some of the breath taking bills. I wanted to post this on the silent night but I didn't make it on time. I think this will be the final post for 2012.

A Humble Confession
In this Advent a man mentioned to me: Direction and vision. He said he will pray for me so that I can find my direction and vision, these two words are serious and stress words for me haha. Sometimes I just too busy with the current task but never think of my direction and vision, I must pray for wisdom so that I can see far and plan my life properly. Sometimes we just busy with earning money but never have time for our own future plan, sometime I don't know I am escaping or I still haven't figured it out, really have to work it out very immediately due to we are racing with time.

Journey To The Christmas
A year is coming to an end. We have walk through the whole year to reach the day where the Christ was born, this journey is not easy, everyday we have to work very hard to follow him and keep our faith with Christ. Through the year, we met a lot of temptation, we met challenge and fight, we are being tested; we have failure and tears, we are being insulted or accused. But thanks god today we are still together with the family members reunited in the church where the Christ was born. The Christ reborn again in our heart it is some kind of renewal to our faith. No matter how wrong we are, we still always got the option to choose God because we will always forgiven by God no matter how great is our sin. He never give us up, when I heard this I was so touched suddenly I realised I was never taken for granted by God. Father reminded us to precious our love one precious the 1 who sit next to you. All this while, the wound, the hurt, the insecure, the loneliness and emptiness let Jesus heal you because with our own power is not strong enough, so just leave it to God and trust in him. Christmas is a holiday for everyone. It's also the day the Christ was born. The most important is a time for us to gather with our family members. Really thanks God today, we are still together as solidarity

Let's conclude this with a good question
How to love? We must trust, transparent, open, true, honest, to our loved ones or spouse. 

Rules & Regulation + Disciplines

I saw a 14 years old boy quoted "rules are make to be broken", I wrote that before as well when I was 20. They said rules are make to be broken but many of us just misunderstand this quote, we thought this is asking us to be illegal, driving under influence, or ecstasy, lie or sleep around. Actually this quote means: Break thru, break a new record or create something new. I think rules are make to be protected. Just like if a country got no rules everything will be ended up with bribe & corruption, what ever u like u just give him a cash to have it, A match with no rules it will ended as a boring show by just seeing the players acting on the field. A competition got no rules will be ended up is a cheating competition. Something happened around u then u will realize discipline is very important for a people as a human. I've been setting some disciplines for myself, i do feel very boring & stress to carry this kind of discipline, but just a few disciplines if you're able to achieve it u will feel satisfaction with yourself this is how u gain the confident to handle yourself well. I like to drink, sometime with some smoke will be fine, i like to spend on the things i like, i love entertainment. This month I'm the king of my body, I restricted on the things i like to do. I feel good for myself cos when i want to stop I'm able stop. Don't tell me it is easy because u are a people who dont like to drink or smoke. If u are in my blood i guarantee u will do all these above & its not easy to control. I not really a very discipline person because I'm not a robot but have some disciplines will be a good challenge. You will start to admire peoples with discipline because it is what success make of. You will find peoples with no discipline is no value. This value not fame can give n not money can buy. Dont do it because u have to do it, Do it because u want to do it for you love your faith.

Eventually. If we dont protect the rules who else will protect us. If u dont love yourself who will love u. If u donno how to love yourself how are u going to love 1 & another, If u dont dare to express yourself how u gonna express your love? If i say: may the god be with u then y are u still feeling scared?

Birthday Wish 2012 NOV

Is hard to believe that my birthday has come & gone. 1 year older & in different kind of mission now. Dont really know what I have achieved & who to love at this age is the most pathetic things. Time passed so fast. Is kinda happy as well to meet up with some old friends in my birthday party, Thankful for the peoples who make an appearance.

I have my birthday dinner with my family as well, is kinda happy my mom is here for the dinner & she has ready a gift for me. After the dinner is the blow cake session, they ask me to make a wish. Honestly i dont really have much idea on making wish. I used to listen to a song "my wish" which is very touched. The lyric is written very nicely. It is a good love song but also a very good advise to our life. It says if u faced with the choice u have to choose i wish u can choose the one that means the most to you because we have to know who really love us & to be precious. If one door opens to another door closed i wish you keep on walking till you find the window, it reminds me not to give up if one of your way is being blocked. I hope u never look back but u never forget, this sentence makes me think many times since the 1st time i listened to this song, for me this is very meaningful, we cant always look back to the party time or single life because we'll move to different stage when we getting older, we won't be keep missing our ex gf or keep hating the one who hurt us, all we can do is take it as an experience, of cos no matter good or bad will stored in our mind because we are human it wont be deleted, for all the bad memories will have to stay positive & love can conquer it. I hope u always forgive & you never regret, i have think over & over again because normally is "forgive & forget", For what i can see here is sometime we very regret to help a friend before it turns to our enemy or we treated our former gf/bf well before, it reminds us to forgive & never regret on good things we have done because we have to grab every chance to do something good.

Of cos my birthday wish still remain normal & naive. I want to become billionaire, can be the main talent for James bond movie in the future. Can make movie with Jessica Alba or Pierce Brosnan or drink coffee with them. Can duet song with Micheal Buble. Please feel free to feel hopeless on me HAHA.

The above is the moment i have for my birthday celebration.
I wish i can perform better in our daily life & family same goes to everyone.

The Role 2.0

THIS IS IT
It's been 1 month I didn't make any update on this blog. I wanted to write about this but the word just dont come to my mind, and I've promised myself to write this beautifully. My brain is too empty to write something now. Someone is waiting for this post so i got to write it whether the idea comes or not. I dont want to write this just my point of view but add in some sharing from friends

My mom asked me many times before: Do u want to back for good. I told her many times as well i havent got the answer right now. I have lived 18 years at my Hometown since the day i was born n now another 10 years in KL so it is more than 50% of that 18 years. Now i just stop by my hometown once in a while. Sometime my parents went to some wifi cafe just to message us is really very sincere, the way they try to reach us...

Few months ago my mom want me to tell her what is her role, is she lost? or she want a point of view from me. I know why she asking me this question. Because i also heard that from the mass. I was thinking what is my role too.

Father from above said I am who I am but he dint tell me what I am. I think i got few roles in my life. Im not a super successful people but im sure im the son of my parents. My role is very easy, all i have to do is be a good son, never ever do anything to ruin my life or hurt myself, keep on track in my life, be a good man is the biggest gift to your parent not just sending money home every month.

Role 2 I'm the employee of my company, all i need to do is achieve my sales target n serve customer well. Although i not good with my boss, last quarter I'm doing quite well with my result. I think is very blessed from god because base on my independent power is not strong enough to do this.

Role 3 I was a brother in my siblings. Is quite challenging & need a lot of wisdom & prayers to hold everyone together. Good relationship & close relationship is not easy, gotta work hard. Sometimes god has arranged us together, all u have to do is live this life n live it to the best for the god sake. haha

Role 4 I have turned to my nephew's godfather, I feel glad & i have to behave good as a senior because the kid observation is very strong.

Maybe future i will become people's husband or someone daddy, so from time to time our role is changing because we never stop in our life. Time is transforming us last time we talk about where to drink now we talk about investment among our family. My mom ask me do u feel scared due to i have committed a big amount, my answer is no because i got u at my back. I think sometime have to throw myself into challenge so that i will feel the fear, just let me step into this danger zone & this will be a dead or alive adventure.

The role of my mom is: she is our mom. My mom can sacrifice which always touched my heart. The effort, time & money she spend is uncountable. The role who can cook 24/7 for us night & day. She got the hopes on us. never give up on us that no one else can do. Many peoples ask me why i so handsome, i will pass this question to my mom n dad. I think my mom applied the colors to my life, let me go for music classes, learn english since small & let me study in art school, all these are my hobbies, now i can sing wherever im driving or walking or bathing. I can draw anytime when i want to. She form me a better man i guess. Thankful for giving me room to grow. We are not very rich so money is very difficult n have to very discipline as well.

I think my mom is a role who is very self motivated although not much peoples praise her, she said the strength is came from god. Thats y the force is still burning inside of her. I dint make my mom proud but im confident enough to say i always spend the quality time together when i was around, this is how i feel proud of myself. My mom is not shame to share about me in front of her friends & i not shame to talk about my mom.

As a conclusion, money is very important but the best way is to obey & send your concern & blessing everytime. We are not god We are just ordinary peoples all we can do is be the best of our role then we will be sorry to no one. We cant get distinction in all of our roles but at least we need to pass all of it so that we wont neglect anything n our life will be balance.

Happy Moon Cake Festival

I've been gone for a while because don't feel like writing anythings. If u ask me are you very busy? I will answer u: I not sure im busy or not. Apparently i may look very free but my mind was extremely busy. Dealing with all my things. My mom ask me do u feel stress i said no because im not sure how to define stress. If u ask me what am i thinking i would said: Bank, Lawyer, e-mail, Credit card, Bills, new career, sales target & work. This is what call committed to life (kidding)hahaha. Sometimes just wish to escape all this things. My mind was so hyper, when i woke up a random song will come to my mind immediately, dont have a peace of mind. I have been busy dealing with banker & lawyer lately, i dont want to just complaining, scolding, or became a mad man. I really spend time to think how should i reply this e mail/message. They said speaking is an art maybe it is true. An email I would like to implement the greeting, wishes, manner, humor & feeling. Knowing a million vocabularies is not important, the most important is express how u feel n ask them to understand u. That's y express your feeling is very important, if u dont practice it u may forget how to express or forget who u really are. Everyone got a courtesy side, i think the way to open their courtesy door will be tell them your situation. Of cos some people may not have courtesy, thats the way they chose to live their life.

Random thought:
She said: You are so lazy, you have not doing the laundry for a month, y u still got pantie to wear? He replied: i have not wearing it for a month.

My friend says Shanghai is getting cold this month, my kindly advise was remember to wear more layers & a condom for protection so that u wont catch a cold.

Happy moon cake festival by the way.

envy//jealousy

Envy because of your pride is too high. You think you are the best & you cant accept others are doing better than you. Envy make us forget to improve but just stop & hate. We are so attracted by the commercial world, we used to follow god's way but nowadays we are following the episode of i-phone saga. You will felt that u are not today's kid because you dont own the modern things in your hands thats where the envy start. Dont let the peoples set your preference, You are the boss of your own preference.

The world is filled with envy & jealousy, the air is being polluted so we will easily affected by this virus thats why "norton anti virus" is selling out fast in the market. Some more we are just human, human will make mistakes even computer does. Anyway just remember to wake up & stop repeating it again. We are still learning everyday from each other so just stay humble.

Actually in real life I'm a person who likes to compare as well, just dont want to being expired haha. My teacher used to teach me before, she said the right envy will give u the right urge, this word is quite persuasive to me. So if you think that im handsome dont mad at me, but find a way to be more awesome than me.

Words from a inspired person. wasnt me.