Logan

tense situation

After I watched the movie Logan, picture above was what I had learnt and captured. I very fancy of his body structure and muscles since the day 1 he played as Wolverine, with the white singlet would be better but shirtless will be the best. It needs a lot of suffocates work out to achieve this kind of out come. For my point of view, I like those photos with tense frowning face and wrinkles because they are the design elements to the people's face. My reveal for this movie is good. You have not much characters to focus other than Wolverine face and his muscles. I like the way they say the grace before their dinner, it gives me a very warm feeling. I like Wolverine takes care of the mutant family, it contains so much responsibilities of love. Despite Logan had a lot of resentments and brokennesses inside which caused from the past, he struggles to love and risks to protect. The points that I do not like were too much vulgar word and brutal. I didn't research how and why and what is the story behind this movie. These are all I can share. Eventually let my drawing tell how much I like about Hugh Jackman as Logan.

Gratitude, Hope and Faith

I feel grateful, loved and blessed. Thanks for having faith and hope in me and continuing to love me even though I didn't perform my best. I was so touched to receive all these Ang Pao with love. The amount is really bigger than the sky and you guys are giving me these without having any doubt in me. I know these are all the hard earn money from you guys. Sometimes we have to talk until our mouth runs dry just because of earning a profit of 5 dollar or stay over time in the office just the sake of earning the extra 25 dollar. I truly understand all these bitter heart's story. All these Ang Pao are made of tears, patience, endurance, effort, precious time, hard work, love and sacrifice, we need all these virtues and spirits to struggle out a beautiful life. Hard times scratch some scars as wrinkles on our face, that's life. We learn and shaped by all these daily challenges. I will utilise the money wisely. Use these money as a seed to sow and reap a fruitful future. Definitely I will not be the richest man but the richest man in the heart, a capable man with love and a man who can give his best with you guys' faith in me. Many obstacles, disappointments, insecurities and anxieties make us lost faith in people, even I myself lost faith in my friends, enemies and beloved ones and started to judge and condemn. We are asked to love one another, but not giving up one another. Lost faith in others is not a right practice. Lets ask for the Spirit of Faith to inflame us from time to time. When he/she walks out of the house always have faith that he/she will come back for good. When he/she has gone to the wrong direction always have faith that he/she will make a u-turn. when he/she has left God always pray and have faith that he/she will wake up and return to God. When he/she has lost faith in relationship always have faith that he/she will be loved again. Eventually, its not about disappointment but hope, not about doubt but having faith with one another.

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A Hopeful Christmas 2016 And Blessed New Year

CDM stable

STM Christmas choir

Christmas party

KL Pavilion

Home deco with lovely hand made card from friend

Please fasten your seat bell as we are about to depart from 2016 to 2017 in few minutes time. Its is Christmas time once again. The baby Jesus is reborn in our heart as a renewal of our Faith. We not just decorate our house with Christmas theme but we decorate the door of our heart, we sing and praise with joy with a full open-heart to welcome Him. I heard these from Fr R, we needs Five-H in our daily lives.

Hard work
We have to work very hard to follow him. The journey our faith is not easy, we must drive our way soberly without fatigue, we dont break the speed limitation, we don't offend the red traffic light because we work hard to obey the Commandments. Its not easy to stay in His faith because the devil is breaking us with temptation every sec of our everyday, he can break us but never allow him to break our faith because the fatherly-love between us and the heavenly Father is unbreakable. We pray to communicate. We read and reflect to understand His words. We work hard for our living and also for our God.

Humour
We need to decorate our life with humour. Life can be so boring if we are too serious, . We need laughter, we need joy, we need joke we need humorous people around us to make out lives colorful. Of course not everyone of us are humorous. I think talk without insulting and judgement is the foundation of being humorous. With a good heart but not a envious heart, envious heart makes us say the hurtful word which makes humour got no room to grow, it kills the joy as well.

Honesty
Speak the truth is what they always say. Sometime speaking the truth it will hurt people's feeling but I still believe it is one of way to help one another. God doesn't punish when we lie but our lies do. when we need help we dont need to create excuse or made up story just because excuse is worst than a lie, it makes people turn a deaf ear on you. I believe honesty attracts mercy because when we are honest we draws the mercy of others.

Humility
Just like Jesus humble himself and became a man because that's the way to stay closer to the man kind. He is a God but he knows how to make himself small to talk to the sinners and live in the world of sin. He is a king of peace but he was born in a stable, it reminds us the importance of simplicity but not pride. Humble and simplicity leads us to happiness, from happiness we move to Joy.

Hope
Honestly, everyone will die one day, but it didn't upset us because when we are living, we live with hopes. Smile gives us hopes according to The Holy Father. Hope is the light, it brightens up the darkness. Hope makes us move but not giving up when we are walking through a difficult path. Hope leads us home and return to God. Jesus comes to the world as a Hope so everyone should fill with hope no matter good or bad because the fire of Hope never dies.

Hope never stops.

Mercy & Tenderness

Above are the Christmas cards that I designed for my beloved ones. It not just only contains hard work but the words and joys from my heart. We were told to go out and tell the people that the Christ was born, by sending card is one of the way to spread the joy and good news. This will be the last post of the year, I still have so many books haven't read. So many works remain undone. No matter what, new year new hope. Lets move to 2017 with hopes and Happy New Year. Peace be with you all.

Season Of Advent 2016

May you surrounded by God's Love.
Remain Hopeful on him.
Find Joy through the journey of faith.
Stay in God's peace now & forever.

The world needs all these words

Dear brothers sisters in Christ,

Please kindly fasten your seat bell for we are about to depart from the year of 2016, before we depart I would like to express my love to yous because I don't want to let a year slip away without making yous better and happier. Two more days toward the Christmas. What do we do? We wait with patience and endurance. We get ready, spiritual life have to be well  prepared. My point of view, we should go for confession, penance and repentance so that we can fully open our heart for Christ to flourish us with His work of justice and recreate us into a new man/woman. It is time to reconcile with our God, brothers and sister and the ignorant. Jesus will come like a light and brighten the dark. When Jesus comes all the brokenness, hatred, anger, conflict, wound and suffocate will be ceased. Lets close the 2016's folder with the spirit of forgiveness and mercy and look forward to 2017 with the spirit of hope. Eventually, may the fire of Love, Hope, Peace and Peace inflame us. Amen.

Inspired by the Catholic Faith.

Regards,
Ivan

Smile From Your Cheek

smiling-wrinkle is a sign of joy

When you look at someone's wrinkles you can tell he/she had gone through a lot of ups and downs, the lines that left on the face as if the scars formed by the experiences. For the smiling-wrinkle is formed by the joy, those lines remind us the laughter and happiness that we used to had.

Pierce Brosnan says he likes to draw and paint as one of the way to set him free from sadness. For my point of view, a drawing made of patience and endurance. It takes up a lot of your time. you need energy to sustain until the end. You may erase over and over again due to you are seeking for perfection. Finally, what drives me to draw? The answer is passion.

A Happy Golden Old Age

love is all you have to give

I bumped into an old man a couple of times while I was rushing to work. He was walking alone with his walking stick. He blocked my way for a few times with his slow walking pace. I was so mad at him because he was making me late for work again. Until yesterday, when I was getting into my car, he was standing behind of me. Instead of saying hi and giving a smile, I gave him that "get the hell out of my way" kind of angry face but he came closer to approach me.
"Good morning young man." He said.
I knocked my head without looking at him.
"Can you give me a ride?"
No. I answered without any hesitation.
"I am so exhausted and my leg is suffering in pain," with a courtesy smile on his face.
His words paused me. I got down from my car just to make sure he was alright. I looked into his eye while I was talking to him. I noticed that he had cataract in his left eye, which is a cloudy of the lens in the eye. His hair was a bit untidy and taking each step uneasily. I let him sit at the back while I was sending him home. It was a bit hard for him to get down the car as my car is quite low. Eventually I was late for work but I felt good because I didn't know I would feel fulfilled by doing such a simple action. I remember Pope Francis says "a faith without action is dead." But when I was rushing I tend to forget all these words and teachings. Actually I suspect this old man purposely waited me there, he even told me my brother sent him back before. For my point of view maybe he wants people to acknowledge him. I was thinking am I too stingy on my acknowledgement? If a simple acknowledgement can make their day why I refuse to give? I start to reflect on these old people's life. Sometime they are very lonely because the young ones refuse to talk and spend time with them. A house is no longer a home for them but a prison. They say: "No town for old man," they are just like living in a reject shop. Their self esteem are getting low day by day because they are jobless and becoming more and more like a baby, they need people to take care of. If they don't experience love, they will feel themselves not only useless but a burden. Even I myself will judge them like that because I can be extremely harsh when the devil wins the fight against me. That is why our Holy Father asks us to communicate more with our grandpa and grandma, learn something from them and give them chances to share as a build up for their confident and acknowledgement. In real life we not just only work for our living, we need to plan and be prepared for our retirement. Not only just old gracefully but old usefully. I would like to pray for my parents and I myself will have a happy golden old age. Its good for us to cultivate a healthy lifestyle now before we are too old to start. JPII said "The future starts today, not tomorrow." A senior citizen told me, retired people should do more exercise and the most simple exercise is to smile. If smile is not enough then you would have to laugh, if laugh is not enough then you would have to sing; if non of these could help then you would have to find a young man like me who can send you home when you are lost. Eventually, always ready to give and dedicate your best no matter you are young or old. By the way, have a very spiritual and blessed All Saints Day and All Souls Day. Before I end lets get back to the story. This morning while I was going out to work. The moment I opened my gate the 92-year-old-man was already waiting out there for my ride. I looked at him with a welcome smile on my face, without letting him wait I opened my car's door and said "let the mission begin......."

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The Spiritual War

We promised that we would
put down our anger before the sunset. 

The good news is the world war has ended, somehow we are still living in a war. It is The Spiritual War. I believe everyone comes to this world with a mission. Some people's mission is to conquer the world. Some people's mission is to save the world. Some people's mission is to serve the God. Some people's mission is to raise a family. Some people may think that getting married is the way to get rid of loneliness. Some people scared to grow old alone. Some people can be a good fisherman but not a good husband/wife because they are too selfish to live with. Many married couples do feel lonely because they don't communicate to each other for years. They are living in a winter war. Breaking the silence is a foul. Smile at each other is a sin. I believe its because unforgiveness and hatreds accumulate from past to the present. Both refuse to talk about the problem. We are taught to speak only positive issue but not the truth. Nobody initiates to fix the problems. Got no gut to apologise because the fear of losing the fight. We called this a pride. The fire of anger rolls like a snowball. The wounds inflamed and turn into scar. The unspoken words left in the heart transform into disease. Not everyone is suitable to get married especially those who carry a lot of brokenness. Anger can be transferred to the innocent children. Loving someone that you angry with is a spiritual war. It's a struggle because your mind keeps telling you to stop killing but the heart wanted to slaughter her/him 10 years ago if it is possible. It is a war between you, yourself and your loved ones. We need deliverance for all these brokenness. Before we forgive we have to forgive ourselves. Before we love we have to love ourselves. We have to draw all these through the Christ our Lord. He is the source of love, we need to recharge it from him day by day. It is impossible for us to express our love when we are running out of love. Love would not exist without God. Marriage would fail without putting God in it. Couples should pray together instead of just watching movie together. Pray together is the strongest bonding time.

Some people mission is to become a Father in the church. Firstly they must have the call of God. That is why we are 24 hours monitoring our phone just because we don't want to miss a call. Being a Father is a mission of God, not a promise but commitment. It needs a lot of patience and passion. It's all about love is sacrifice. People go to church and pray, receive the blessing and peace. However they themselves are so scared to be a Father they even more worried if their son will become a Father. They are not pretty sure with their life but they are pretty sure they are not becoming a father. When we want to conceive a baby we will ask Jesus grants us with a baby. When Jesus needs a Shepard we will say sorry, the baby is registered under our surname. We rarely encourage people to be a Father because the fee of University is too pricey nowadays. I feel a bit paranoid. What if one day we go to the church and see a notice "Mass is cancelled, Fathers have retired." We should look into the church's need and put into our responsible. Everybody has a dream. Everyone works for a living . Everyone wants to be a manager in the office but not in a church because Father doesn't have a business card stated with "Managing Director." Life experience can be gained everywhere when you take up the responsibility. We can grow no matter where we are. Many of us are seeking for fame. Advertisement and trend create our dream nowadays. There is something we must remind ourselves, the real life and the eternal life. We built a bungalow here but we don't even have a standing ground in the Heaven. Heaven, the Kingdom of Heaven. Lets pause for a while and think about it. What's the tactic to penetrate into this Kingdom of Heaven? How to own a house in the heaven. What do we need to do? We need to invest something to build this house. Before we qualify to get in we have to win The Spiritual War. Everyday we have to fight against the spirits of anger, lust, envy, greed, gluttony, laziness and other rivals, until the end of time. We know we are not fighting alone. Everyone has their own Guardian Angel. We have St Michael the Archangel to protect us from the demons. We have St John Paul II to strengthen us with "be not afraid." We have Mother Teresa to enlighten us with doing small things with greatest love. We have Papa Francesco who speak the word of mercy and spread the power of Mercy. Everything is already provided by God. Use your wisdom and apply them in your daily obstacles. We need them in our fight. Only Jesus can grant us peace during this spiritual war. God always has a way whenever you say you do, all you have to do is obey Him.

Have the courage to feel the fear when you tell Jesus I want to follow you. Look into his divine-mercy's eye when you talk to him. We are not conscience enough to tell what is good, what is the right thing to invest. Only God can wake us up while we are sleeping.

Eventually. Be not afraid to pray for your priesthood vocation. Have faith in yourself as how God has faith in you. You might be the one. Lets ask God for his guidance, give us a strong back to fight in this life time Spiritual War.