Cry

Some women says a man who got the sadness in their eye is the most handsome man because it will makes u want to find out more about him. I have lose my fight today & my eye is full of sadness, how i wish i can escape by drinking alcohol or smoking some drugs. Today i went to church alone. After the priest telling a very touching story, I started to cry just like an actor u can ask him to cry anytime, i cry until i cannot stop until the kid beside me said tears. We are playing a role everyday, everyday i want to look good i want to let people know im ok, i want to stay positive, i have to try my best, i have to fight, i have to find solution for myself to feel better whenever im unhappy. But today im alone in church with god, thats nothing i can hide or thats no need to tell god im fine. The god knows u are not fine. Thats y i cant stop crying. Got few things on my mind but i never really go to deal with it, but today im dealing it alone in the church & i just need some quiet time to listen god's opinions. I felt very sad sometimes is not being appreciated but I still have to hold on. I felt very sad when i know my favourite uncle got cancer, i felt very sad because some peoples purposely hurt my feeling, i felt very sad some peoples hurt my family. I felt sad i lost my new hand phone because of drinking with the customer i dislike. Everyday we just keep ourself busy because we dont want to deal with this kind of sad feeling. But today it all comes to me in 1 go all i need is give me a break to cry it out. cry out all this hurt & cry out all this sadness.

The priest was the one to start my tears by telling touching story. I like to listen to story because i like to imagine by myself & create my own scene whether is night time or day time, whether is winter or summer. He said a UNI student went to NY for learn about their culture because he need to write a report about NY's culture for the final project. So when he was in NY he get to know a girl, this girl very like this young man, they work together do assignment together & discuss together, so after 8 months this young man has completed his job. it is time for him to leave. On the last day they did a farewell party for him. After that he took a teksi to the terminal n fly away, but before he took a teksi the girl came out to say goodbye to him they hug each other left cheek n right cheek. The girl touchs her own heart & say I want to say something from my heart, I think is not much chances for us to meet up anymore after u left but i want to tell u 1 thing, u make me best when u are around. This is the reason y this girl like this young man so much. Eventually the guy has gone back to his hometown to complete his study. My sister told me before dont find a partner just because u very love or just got the look. Find someone who can bring out the best of u, someone who can make u grow, someone who can make u better. The power is inside of us but we dint fully use it, but if there are someone there to spur us up, our power is full forced.

Please give me a supportive comment if u read this. I just need some support to win all these fights.