Poland Krakow

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Somethings that hold me back

My mom read from the book, it says shouldn't look back or miss the old time, should look at the future & look farer, isnt we shouldn't listen to 90's song although 90's song is the songs that grow up with me. We shouldn't stuck at the old times, like always miss the old good times, miss the ex partner, but thats not wrong as long as we dont get over obsessed. As long as we dont miss those notorious thing that we have done in the past, if not we will continue doing it.

I can't deny that I always went back to my ex office lately ever since i knew that they will be shutting down at the end of March, maybe thats the place where my emotion left, I've been worked in that company for 3 years, it consider a long period for the 27 years old me, my mom did ask me before why u can work so long at the company, I also wonder why, is this a good company? answer is no, but the most important is i can blend in very well with all the colleagues, maybe is the love, the care that make me stayed for 3 years, they treat me good, give me food, give me joy.

That is why I posted the email which i wrote at the moment i resign.

It is 31st of March today which is the last day of my ex company, I've been working whole day long until 5 o'clock, i was a bit hesitated because i still at my customer shop, at the moment i was thinking accompany my customer to have some chill out drink after their operation hours cos my ex company is closing soon as well. But at last i decided to go to visit my ex company, on the way i co incident met some hawker stall which makes me able to buy some finger food to them, i was quite happy to buy that. I went there few times, only this time I able to meet the Director Mr Tan Kam Foo, when Mr Tan saw me he straight away hang his hand on my shoulder which mean we are still close. He always said i look like his elder son. he said his elder son very similar with me, always stumble when talking, always reply with an answer with not much word, just like people ask: how are u? he will answer: fine thank you, is not like, hey, Im very fine today, thank you for your concern. he said his son style is very straight true & honest, but did he meant I'm very honest as well??? HAHHAHA thats really make me wonder, cos i wish that people will think I'm a honest people as well.

When Tan Kam Foo is talking beside me, i was like, im not listening to him, i feel that it just like 1 of the voice in this place, just like the day i was working here, i was so used to his voice around but I may not listening to him, maybe i just want to feel the last moment at this same old place with the same old colleagues, thats what i want to feel, i knew everyone is feeling very difficult & like complicated heart, i was like donno what to say cos after today everyone will have their own path, i should ask about whats the planning for future, all the best, or some encourage words but i didnt, cos dont feel like making the situation into tears. All I can do is smile. I am very sad to hear the word: gathering, cos after this is gonna hard for all of us to gather again with the same peoples at the same place, that place dont belongs to us anymore.

Never thought this will come to an end.
feeling just like:
Sunway Pyramid dont have decoration anymore.
The G6 dance club dont play music anymore.
The Marlboro Light dont have cigarette inside anymore.
Michael Jackson dont dance anymore.

what I've written in June 2009

Date: Mon, 8 Jun 2009 16:01:44 +0800

Message
Thank you Ivan.
I just back to office today and fell very touching by your message to all colleagues, especially your appreciation. I am very happy with your manner.
Please take good care and keep in touch.
Warmest Regards
Tan Kam Foo
-----Original Message-----
From: Ivan ho [mailto:ivan_ho5@hotmail.com]
Sent: Thursday, June 04, 2009 11:37 PM

Subject: thanks all the colleagues

1st of all i want to thanks to all of u, thanks for the joy in the working days, i felt very proud to work with u all, thanks for the nice atmosphere, thanks for the joy, thanks for the humour, thanks for the coustest, thanks the colleagues who treat me lunch n buy me present. i feel very uncomfortable to live without u all, i felt very touch for my last day until my tears almost drop. u all are so awesome...i love u all..

首先我要谢谢你们。谢谢你们给我的开心的
工作经历,我的 last day 我真的被你们感动的泪水都要流,真的不舍得,很不舒服,不习惯将要离开的感觉,因为几年每天一起工作的感情是很不简单。

people i want to thank
这里是我要感谢的人。

Mr Tan. Director
i will always remember what u taught me n your advices to my daily life. U like to call me Young man, and u guard me how to be a proper young man.
thank you for sending me home when i got no transport in the past, u really a helpful man. U always like to help but never make a complain, which i really very appreciate.

Miss Tan.
The Betrayer GM
You always remind me the disciplines that we should have in our work, this is a very important thing which i can apply in my future.. thank u...

Lewis
.Senior manager
1 word.. A-very good man... always bring me to lunch...

CM Wong Senior manager
working with u make me improve a lot, like how to meet the time line n how to be more extra careful to our mistake. I very grateful for all your effort, thanks for your lunch, thanks anyway.

Yelim manager
你很幽默,很明白人,让人感到开心。thanks for your breakfast anyway.... hahahha

Vivien
my superior
thanks for your kindness, thanks for your patient, thanks for your generosity, thanks for your help,thanks for your breakfast, is really wonderful to work with u which i cannot deny.

Wendy my colleague
working with u is fun, u very willing to help, very initiative. thanks for your help in office, and thanks for your dumpling, thanks for all your joy n all the food n junk food.

Kelly Account
1个字 - 烦。 哈哈哈哈
可是和你做同事
是很快乐的。

Ann Account
你是非常幽默,带来很多欢笑, 谢谢你常常3点给我的面包,救了我的命。谢谢您的好

Queenie
Colleague
Thanks for the VCD that u gave me last time... thanks for your bread in 3 pm... it's interesting while talking to u... thanks for u gift from bangkok.... u really have my heart.

Polly tan
colleague
和你做同事不是很久,可是工作你也帮我很多,也常常请我吃糖果。 谢谢

Chee Seong colleague
Thanks for your blessing

Gny colleague
和你做同事是很爽快,可能你很 3 8, 而且我们兴趣一样。哈哈哈哈

Angel customer service
谢谢你借我十块。救了我的命.。 你们是最好的。

Mee customer service
谢谢你帮我开单,让我没给distributor complain...
你们是最好的。


Yuki customer service
谢谢你教我做 membership form.. 生命中又会多一样同西。。
你们是最好的。


Nicole customer service
谢谢你
帮我守我的车 for double park. 让交通顺畅。 你们是最好的。



ATTENTION

if i miss out any email... please help me forward to them THANKS..

regards
IVAN HO

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Sunday's News.

"How drunk were u last night"? this is a frequent question that i need to ask every Sunday. So my Sunday's NEWS is always about how drunk is my friends last night, i got some Regular drinkers but they may not drinking with me every time, but i know they do drink every Saturday. normally their reply was, drink until puke, drink until data lost, drink until headache. I know the answer is under estimated but i still feel fun of it, i also donno why. Sometimes i will ask drink how many bottles, drink whisky, cognac, brandy or beers? Wheres the venue & from what time to what time, is just like a alcohol survey, that is why my real part time job is do about alcohol survey.

A friend said she feel herself like a water filter, her job is to filter the beers, so when i ask her to drink i will said: it is time to filter the beers. Some friends like to handle phone call when they are drunk, they will became midnight radio DJ & listen to people's pillow talk , n when she get bored of talking she will tell the listener because of the time matter I have to immediately end the program now, without saying good bye but du.. du.. du.. du.. (engaged tone).

I like to call my friends when i was drunk last time, but those were the days, maybe last time we were really very close to each other but now i dare not make this kind of drunk call on Sunday morning. I donno whether they will miss my midnight drunk call or not. but i have lost my interest to make this kind of call, maybe my energy isnt strong enough now, what I have to do now is drink more redbull, so that my friend still got hope on my calling.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Favorite Movie

Just watched this movie few days ago, actually this was a Dec 2009 movie, I was so freaking outdated because i've been so many years without watching any movies. This is a story about a family that full of lies, & Robert De Niro is the father who make them comeback together on the Christmas day, the way Robert De Niro pretend that he do not know the truth is really sad, the way he sacrifice by eating the medicine which already being stepped into pieces on the floor is very touching. I like he passed the letter to different children, that make me think he really put afford & hope on everyone. I like the way they left the only luggage rolling in the terminal, it shown loneliness. The most impact part is: Her daughter asked him, why u always ask me what is my ambition but u never tell me yours, Robert De Niro stumble for a while & answered: Er... i dont have any ambition when i was young, my ambition is just to become a good father. His answer was so solid & complete, it really makes the tear wanna drop.

Friday, March 11, 2011

She's going hollywood tonight

Super love this video, jaw drop on this. the ending is very impressive to me. Choreography is good, MJ costume blend nicely with today's fashion, I like the way they decorate the MJ street. watch until my skin felt cold for a sec.

I have bought this new album on March 2011, this is a song which i wish they will come out with a video. now this is it, it dint disappointed me & it is out of my expectation. If u ask me what album is the best lately i will strongly recommend "michael" album, album with pure vocal thats where the basic came from. Im sick of Auto tune music especially by black eyed peas.