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Sunday, May 6, 2012


Some women says a man who got the sadness in their eye is the most handsome man because it will makes u want to find out more about him. I have lose my fight today & my eye is full of sadness, how i wish i can escape by drinking alcohol or smoking some drugs. Today i went to church alone. After the priest telling a very touching story, I started to cry just like an actor u can ask him to cry anytime, i cry until i cannot stop until the kid beside me said tears. We are playing a role everyday, everyday i want to look good i want to let people know im ok, i want to stay positive, i have to try my best, i have to fight, i have to find solution for myself to feel better whenever im unhappy. But today im alone in church with god, thats nothing i can hide or thats no need to tell god im fine. The god knows u are not fine. Thats y i cant stop crying. Got few things on my mind but i never really go to deal with it, but today im dealing it alone in the church & i just need some quiet time to listen god's opinions. I felt very sad sometimes is not being appreciated but I still have to hold on. I felt very sad when i know my favourite uncle got cancer, i felt very sad because some peoples purposely hurt my feeling, i felt very sad some peoples hurt my family. I felt sad i lost my new hand phone because of drinking with the customer i dislike. Everyday we just keep ourself busy because we dont want to deal with this kind of sad feeling. But today it all comes to me in 1 go all i need is give me a break to cry it out. cry out all this hurt & cry out all this sadness.

The priest was the one to start my tears by telling touching story. I like to listen to story because i like to imagine by myself & create my own scene whether is night time or day time, whether is winter or summer. He said a UNI student went to NY for learn about their culture because he need to write a report about NY's culture for the final project. So when he was in NY he get to know a girl, this girl very like this young man, they work together do assignment together & discuss together, so after 8 months this young man has completed his job. it is time for him to leave. On the last day they did a farewell party for him. After that he took a teksi to the terminal n fly away, but before he took a teksi the girl came out to say goodbye to him they hug each other left cheek n right cheek. The girl touchs her own heart & say I want to say something from my heart, I think is not much chances for us to meet up anymore after u left but i want to tell u 1 thing, u make me best when u are around. This is the reason y this girl like this young man so much. Eventually the guy has gone back to his hometown to complete his study. My sister told me before dont find a partner just because u very love or just got the look. Find someone who can bring out the best of u, someone who can make u grow, someone who can make u better. The power is inside of us but we dint fully use it, but if there are someone there to spur us up, our power is full forced.

Please give me a supportive comment if u read this. I just need some support to win all these fights.


  1. It's good that you managed to spend your time alone in the house of God because God understands you better than anyone else even though he's invisible. He is a silent listener to whatever you're going through, the pain and the hardships. Life seems like a never ending battle to all of us but I guess once you take a moment, some alone time just to listen and talk to God, eventually we will find a shining light after that. It may not be now but I believe we can always go through the hardships in life if we believe in God's love. Plus, it's okay to cry...it doesn't make you a sissy at all. Sometimes crying could be a way to ease the pain...believe me, I've done that numerous time. Also know that whatever you're going through right now, remember that God, your family and your true friends will always have your back no matter what. Hope you'll feel better soon. God bless. xxx

  2. The good thing is, your sadness has brought you closer to God. :D

    Anyway, you have my full support!
    Cheer up la.

    Have a blessed week!

  3. Vivien. yeah.. what u saying was very meaningful. Thanks for the concern n the consolation. i will try my best to feel better.

    Chloe. yeah. tears bring me closer to god haha.. anyway thanks for the supportive comment. u're really a friend who care.

  4. ui brata...cheer up..sorry for the late...today only got some time to read ur blog...take care ya..hehe..

    1. hey. hahahha long time ago already this post. im back to normal man. haha

  5. u r back to normal so i noneed to comment lo?

    everything in our life is not forever one, no matter happiness or sadness. they're all temporaly scene.

    that day i saw a pic, u were lying on ah girl n yew yew sofa.
    this remind me our good old days.
    u see. happy time will pass....we r not going to sit on that sofa n drunk together , cook maggie n eat chipster together anymore.
    last 2 yrs i was so suffer.....
    look at me now, i m not suffer anymore ...bad days has gone...

    1. haha... yeah u are right. thanks for cooking the maggie & the mak car lan drinks HAHAHAHA those were the happy moment.. Anyway all the best on your way.