Draw Sth 25th May 2012//Additional

Its been a long while haven't draw a human figure. Normally just draw "Cars" to my nephew. Today was something special, suddenly some A4 papers in front of me while im playing my laptop. At 1st i was drawing the rapper 50cent, then suddenly change to this pic haha... i know my stroke was not fascinating enough, but this is not a competition, i think art is an enjoyment, i kinda enjoy. Sometimes we love a song not because the song is good to listen, is because it is very good to sing. sometimes we love to sing not because we sing very well, is because we found the joy while we are singing. Kinda happy is because i dint even sketch this with a pencil before i start but straight away draw it with a ball pen, so the result for me is quite satisfy. If my top Illustration friends saw this they will ask me: are u drawing smigoh, child play chucky or any monster that featured in Hollywood movie HAHAHHA.

Just bought a new 2B pencil. Accidentally saw this picture on internet yahoo & it was like 2am in the morning which is also a working day. I was like just simply draw for fun before i go to bed, but when it started it's hard to stop. Draw until half way i was about to give it up but eventually my mission has accomplished. I didnt even sharpen my pencil cos i was thinking just a draft but the bold stroke look something new for me. A picture will not finish drawing when u keep starring at it, all u can do is close this file. A drawing is not how similar u can follow the reference but it's about how u make the drawing looks alive. A drawing is not fully about the accurate of proportion but it's how u simplify the drawing & make it more mesmerize than the reference. In our life is the same. It's not about how good u imitate the magazine cover. It's all about how u make yourself looks mesmerize because u know yourself the best, & u are the master of your body. Magazine cover may just a good reference for you. Is unnecessary to complicate our life. We need ideas to simplify our life.

Live at a bar

Just went to a Bar few days ago. Sitting at the bar & watching the English football final. Normally come to final everyone is very exciting included the non watch football people, i do not dare to make a sound because im a non watch football guy & i scared the fans will whack me with the jugs. There's an english guy beside me who is supporting Man City, Because of M.City is losing he keeps scolding with the word "fook" beside me, how i wish i can tell him: Mr English. Can you please stop saying the word, we pronounce it "fuck" in our country, we dont pronounce it fook & make sure u fuck it with the right pronunciation to get your partner aroused next time. Im sure the Mr English will ask me back what the fuck are u thinking, i will tell him: Pitbull Doggy style. After that I asked the bartender(SPOE) for another drink, the bartender who is an Asernal fans also an African, he straight away give me the bill to pay, i said: No, i wont got the money to pay until M.City won the game, by the way please give me another drink of guinness, the previous glass's portion is just for the baby. Eventually the bar is closing at 00:15am. Spoe came to me again, now u got the money to pay because of M.City has won in the last minutes, I was smiling & said: yes, i got to pay now. before i left i tell him next year champion will be Asernal, please believe it without doubt. goodbye.

Cry

Some women says a man who got the sadness in their eye is the most handsome man because it will makes u want to find out more about him. I have lose my fight today & my eye is full of sadness, how i wish i can escape by drinking alcohol or smoking some drugs. Today i went to church alone. After the priest telling a very touching story, I started to cry just like an actor u can ask him to cry anytime, i cry until i cannot stop until the kid beside me said tears. We are playing a role everyday, everyday i want to look good i want to let people know im ok, i want to stay positive, i have to try my best, i have to fight, i have to find solution for myself to feel better whenever im unhappy. But today im alone in church with god, thats nothing i can hide or thats no need to tell god im fine. The god knows u are not fine. Thats y i cant stop crying. Got few things on my mind but i never really go to deal with it, but today im dealing it alone in the church & i just need some quiet time to listen god's opinions. I felt very sad sometimes is not being appreciated but I still have to hold on. I felt very sad when i know my favourite uncle got cancer, i felt very sad because some peoples purposely hurt my feeling, i felt very sad some peoples hurt my family. I felt sad i lost my new hand phone because of drinking with the customer i dislike. Everyday we just keep ourself busy because we dont want to deal with this kind of sad feeling. But today it all comes to me in 1 go all i need is give me a break to cry it out. cry out all this hurt & cry out all this sadness.

The priest was the one to start my tears by telling touching story. I like to listen to story because i like to imagine by myself & create my own scene whether is night time or day time, whether is winter or summer. He said a UNI student went to NY for learn about their culture because he need to write a report about NY's culture for the final project. So when he was in NY he get to know a girl, this girl very like this young man, they work together do assignment together & discuss together, so after 8 months this young man has completed his job. it is time for him to leave. On the last day they did a farewell party for him. After that he took a teksi to the terminal n fly away, but before he took a teksi the girl came out to say goodbye to him they hug each other left cheek n right cheek. The girl touchs her own heart & say I want to say something from my heart, I think is not much chances for us to meet up anymore after u left but i want to tell u 1 thing, u make me best when u are around. This is the reason y this girl like this young man so much. Eventually the guy has gone back to his hometown to complete his study. My sister told me before dont find a partner just because u very love or just got the look. Find someone who can bring out the best of u, someone who can make u grow, someone who can make u better. The power is inside of us but we dint fully use it, but if there are someone there to spur us up, our power is full forced.

Please give me a supportive comment if u read this. I just need some support to win all these fights.

Bersih3.0//428

A girl asked my friend in Station Pasar Seni, what are u here for? My friend answered Im here to "Gotong Royong", he said in our real life we also need to gotong royong once a while. Im kinda like the answer, the answer is very deep enough for u to find out. we not here because of the trend, we are here to fight for a clean election & stop lynas. Actually they got few points for this rally but i was there to fight the right.

Dont really like the radio, media or TV news always giving the false information. Dont really like the radio still asking people: "do u think MU or MC will win? who care? which team won also wont change the history of Malaysia. They are so hypocrite & i hope they will stop practice escaping their real life & stop this kind of false info culture.

I asked many of my friends, are u going to Bersih3.0 this Saturday? They like er... not sure, but actually they have decided to go in their heart. I was the same when the question come to me i also stumble to say Yes or No, Actually also a yes in my heart cos i cant find any excuses, this is our country this is our Malaysia I dont want to escape anymore i want to show sincere & support. I was so touched when i know many of my friends went there too. Some even went there the day before, very proud to have this kind of friends.

1 of the most touching thing is when I'm in the line i can feel the spirit of we are really united. I donno what is her or what is his purpose to be here, but at that hour we all only have 1 motive, 1 direction, 1 queue, 1 heart, 1 word: Bersih.

My heart feel sour & sad cos some peoples were knocked by the police car due to closing time was too mess up. The reason is because some of the fake bersih members throw the red cons to the front screen of the police car, i know it is an accident but who the hell to create this kind of shit people shit fake members. The innocent victim have to hand broke or leg broke because of your fault. I know some of the peoples are throwing stone to the police car while they are moving but i think they are speeding inside the crowd. Not here to said whose right or wrong, just hope everybody is safe for this rally. We want a peace 1.

It Is Time To Feel The Heat

Please let me put on my clothes 1st before i catch a cold. It's been a while i haven't write anything serious here because sometimes i need to lose myself so that i won't go crazy haha. I can't believe last Sat i gave my kindly advices until 5am really sorry for that. i know im very harsh & mad but u know while the fire is burning that is where the urge will on immediately without hesitation, i know i suddenly pushing until no more room to breathe is not really good. i donno this is god's intention or mine, i feel that it is time to start a fight. Im still remember once upon a time i was really very poor in financial, i just dont want to tell my mom or siblings for help because i want to let myself die 1 time, i want to give myself a lesson, that was crazy challenge. I almost no money to eat but when u leave all this money behind u will get to see everything crystal clear. I ask my friend to buy me dinner. He asked me isnt no more money i replied yeah. He even asked me: do u want me to lend u more. When i got no transport to go home i asked 1 of my friend purposely come n send me home. When we're rich we are mighty with the money, when im very poor i'm mighty with my own naked mouth n hand which really makes me proud. Sometimes we need to fall into danger zone then we will realise a lot of people still very caring. We need to fall into risk then we will know how to ask for help. We need to get burned 1 time then we will know what is pain. Really something to learn.

Last Sun the priest was saying about innocent. When we was a kid we are very innocent. Innocent it doesnt mean is stupid. After i got my nephew then i realised innocent kid is wiser than an adult. Kid are born with pure & kind.
That is something alot to learn from the kid, when a kid want to sing he will sing it without bothering the listener. The way they delivered message is so strong which they no need to speak fluent english or mandarin. Whenever they want to dance they will dance. When they want to love they wont see who to love. when they want to tell they tell the truth. They know how to simplify things to the best. Nowadays we are already an adult, we should do better than a kid & bare in mind the word of "innocent". This is what i learn from last Sun. I always tell myself to back for good, not im going back to my hometown for good, reason is we are already good since we were born so what we gotta do now is back for good. Sometimes we gotta promise ourself we gonna achieve the goal or promise yourself we will become better, once we have promised sure is very stress & struggle, this is a deal between no 1 but ourself, once we break the promises ourself value will drop, thats y never escape or lie to yourself so that u will feel that u are a person with value.

Like I mentioned before. We need some drinks to break the rules, what i meant was not crash the red light or steal the diamonds, we need to break our own rules like: tonight i gonna sing in a public, tonight i gonna dance like MJ, tonight i gonna breakthru myself just like no one else in this room. We have so much pride & restriction, we need to find solution to break ourself. The biggest enemy is ourself.

Coming Saturday is another "Clean Election rally". I hope that everyone got the discernment to judge what is right or wrong. Some people dont want to judge because they dont want to be judgmental isnt funny or silly? Then why are still so many peoples watching Simon Cowell show, just ask him dont be judgmental n eat pop corn while the contestant is singing. Some peoples even worst, no comment or no point of view, these are the empty shell people. If everyone got no comments & no 1 judge who gonna fight for the right? Finally I think its really time for everyone to stand up no matter who u are.

Can you handle me

I'm very demanding hope my friends dint offended by me, or maybe they have knew it very early, they knew im a dick.

I'll check did u wear your clothes tidily
I'll check did u wax your hair well today
I'll check did u eye contact with me while im talking to u
I'll check what are u wearing today
I'll check are u nicely groomed
I'll figure out what perfume u are using
I'll observe the way u talk to check how true u are
I very choosy for the place for eating
I very choosy for the choice of music
I'll complaint the room service manager
I'll scold the waitor if i was feeling unpretty
I gave stress vibes to my friend when he's not coming for my party
I keep order when my friends want to go home

Anyway Im a Scorpio, are these the symptoms of Scorpio ???

What He/She Wants.

I just heard this from the radio on Tuesday.
What a lady wants:

A guy can cook, it's a sexy things for them.
(I quite agree)
A guy who has a kind hearted for pet like cat or dog.
(Er. no comment)
A guy who is a rock star or celeb.
(Is impossible HAHA)
A guy can drawing or singing. an artistic guy who is very observant.
(I 100% agree)
A guy who is romantic.
(For sure)
A guy who looks like hot daddy.
(Yes for some of the girls)
A guy who can fix a car.
(No more worry for car breakdown in the middle of the road)
A guy who is handsome.
(I think this happened before christ, its an instinct)
A guy who is good in sport
(Absolutely)
A bad boy
(This is the no.1 of the list thru the radio)
but isn't it a bit outdated? I thought this is only for the 90's or teenager girls from small town. I not really sure about this.

What a man wants:

A girl who is predictable & also unpredictable
(U can predict what she wants & unpredictable what she will give)
A girl who is a good girl
(Good girl who is not a smoker or alcoholic)
A girl who is sexy enough to make u proud
(A girl who makes u feel windy when u walking with her HAHA)
A girl who can cook & can social when it needed to
(No headache where to eat every night & she blends in with your friends well)
A girl who can take care of the family
(Everyone agrees)
A girl who got decisions.
(She can propose something when you ask her to)
A girl who do not stick with you 24 hours
(Men like freedom)
A girl who is silly
(So that we don't need to create new excuses everytime)
A girl who is independent
(Yes. Miss independent got her own things)
A girl who is a model
(This is same as girls who love bad boys, guys love model but doesn't last long eventually.

Above is just some researches it might be false. Most important we gotta have our point of view & know what we want.