The Role 2.0

THIS IS IT
It's been 1 month I didn't make any update on this blog. I wanted to write about this but the word just dont come to my mind, and I've promised myself to write this beautifully. My brain is too empty to write something now. Someone is waiting for this post so i got to write it whether the idea comes or not. I dont want to write this just my point of view but add in some sharing from friends

My mom asked me many times before: Do u want to back for good. I told her many times as well i havent got the answer right now. I have lived 18 years at my Hometown since the day i was born n now another 10 years in KL so it is more than 50% of that 18 years. Now i just stop by my hometown once in a while. Sometime my parents went to some wifi cafe just to message us is really very sincere, the way they try to reach us...

Few months ago my mom want me to tell her what is her role, is she lost? or she want a point of view from me. I know why she asking me this question. Because i also heard that from the mass. I was thinking what is my role too.

Father from above said I am who I am but he dint tell me what I am. I think i got few roles in my life. Im not a super successful people but im sure im the son of my parents. My role is very easy, all i have to do is be a good son, never ever do anything to ruin my life or hurt myself, keep on track in my life, be a good man is the biggest gift to your parent not just sending money home every month.

Role 2 I'm the employee of my company, all i need to do is achieve my sales target n serve customer well. Although i not good with my boss, last quarter I'm doing quite well with my result. I think is very blessed from god because base on my independent power is not strong enough to do this.

Role 3 I was a brother in my siblings. Is quite challenging & need a lot of wisdom & prayers to hold everyone together. Good relationship & close relationship is not easy, gotta work hard. Sometimes god has arranged us together, all u have to do is live this life n live it to the best for the god sake. haha

Role 4 I have turned to my nephew's godfather, I feel glad & i have to behave good as a senior because the kid observation is very strong.

Maybe future i will become people's husband or someone daddy, so from time to time our role is changing because we never stop in our life. Time is transforming us last time we talk about where to drink now we talk about investment among our family. My mom ask me do u feel scared due to i have committed a big amount, my answer is no because i got u at my back. I think sometime have to throw myself into challenge so that i will feel the fear, just let me step into this danger zone & this will be a dead or alive adventure.

The role of my mom is: she is our mom. My mom can sacrifice which always touched my heart. The effort, time & money she spend is uncountable. The role who can cook 24/7 for us night & day. She got the hopes on us. never give up on us that no one else can do. Many peoples ask me why i so handsome, i will pass this question to my mom n dad. I think my mom applied the colors to my life, let me go for music classes, learn english since small & let me study in art school, all these are my hobbies, now i can sing wherever im driving or walking or bathing. I can draw anytime when i want to. She form me a better man i guess. Thankful for giving me room to grow. We are not very rich so money is very difficult n have to very discipline as well.

I think my mom is a role who is very self motivated although not much peoples praise her, she said the strength is came from god. Thats y the force is still burning inside of her. I dint make my mom proud but im confident enough to say i always spend the quality time together when i was around, this is how i feel proud of myself. My mom is not shame to share about me in front of her friends & i not shame to talk about my mom.

As a conclusion, money is very important but the best way is to obey & send your concern & blessing everytime. We are not god We are just ordinary peoples all we can do is be the best of our role then we will be sorry to no one. We cant get distinction in all of our roles but at least we need to pass all of it so that we wont neglect anything n our life will be balance.

Happy Moon Cake Festival

I've been gone for a while because don't feel like writing anythings. If u ask me are you very busy? I will answer u: I not sure im busy or not. Apparently i may look very free but my mind was extremely busy. Dealing with all my things. My mom ask me do u feel stress i said no because im not sure how to define stress. If u ask me what am i thinking i would said: Bank, Lawyer, e-mail, Credit card, Bills, new career, sales target & work. This is what call committed to life (kidding)hahaha. Sometimes just wish to escape all this things. My mind was so hyper, when i woke up a random song will come to my mind immediately, dont have a peace of mind. I have been busy dealing with banker & lawyer lately, i dont want to just complaining, scolding, or became a mad man. I really spend time to think how should i reply this e mail/message. They said speaking is an art maybe it is true. An email I would like to implement the greeting, wishes, manner, humor & feeling. Knowing a million vocabularies is not important, the most important is express how u feel n ask them to understand u. That's y express your feeling is very important, if u dont practice it u may forget how to express or forget who u really are. Everyone got a courtesy side, i think the way to open their courtesy door will be tell them your situation. Of cos some people may not have courtesy, thats the way they chose to live their life.

Random thought:
She said: You are so lazy, you have not doing the laundry for a month, y u still got pantie to wear? He replied: i have not wearing it for a month.

My friend says Shanghai is getting cold this month, my kindly advise was remember to wear more layers & a condom for protection so that u wont catch a cold.

Happy moon cake festival by the way.

envy//jealousy

Envy because of your pride is too high. You think you are the best & you cant accept others are doing better than you. Envy make us forget to improve but just stop & hate. We are so attracted by the commercial world, we used to follow god's way but nowadays we are following the episode of i-phone saga. You will felt that u are not today's kid because you dont own the modern things in your hands thats where the envy start. Dont let the peoples set your preference, You are the boss of your own preference.

The world is filled with envy & jealousy, the air is being polluted so we will easily affected by this virus thats why "norton anti virus" is selling out fast in the market. Some more we are just human, human will make mistakes even computer does. Anyway just remember to wake up & stop repeating it again. We are still learning everyday from each other so just stay humble.

Actually in real life I'm a person who likes to compare as well, just dont want to being expired haha. My teacher used to teach me before, she said the right envy will give u the right urge, this word is quite persuasive to me. So if you think that im handsome dont mad at me, but find a way to be more awesome than me.

Words from a inspired person. wasnt me.

The Left Brain Says

My best friend is already in Melbourne, My another friend is packing her bags to Melbourne now but I've decided to stay because this is where i grow up. This is where we fight.

My friend is getting divorce because their relationship is over no matter they're going to try or not but they never put themself into their small kid's shoes. A kid is innocent n doing nothing wrong but he has to bare with this kind of consequences. He had suddenly became a victim. U & your spouse may feel that the love is gone but actually the love is in the air.

I always ask god dont give me love but just giving me money thats enough, but he always dont listen to me, he still give me what i really need.

My friend is driving a super car n smoking cigar plus drinking moet with many pretty young things. It may looks like the trade mark a traditional rich men. I dont want to be a follower like what they show of the TV. I want to become a leader.

My friend always thought she is the world most pity, she has given too much contribution but get nothing back. That is y she always so frustrated with her fuck up life. But she never think of what that guy get back after he die on the cross.

Life with a lot of commitments make us almost die but life without any commitments are totally smooth way to die.

The world make us so blind, It keeps telling us plastic surgery is the real beauty, Use design brands are the upper class peoples, Keep persuading us K pop & U.S hip hop music is the best. Did u forget u have a pair of eye & a pair of ear, dont tell yourself "dont judge" But be a good judge. Dont let people decide what is beautiful for u because they are not the master of your body. Dont let people tell u what sounds nice because your ear is not attached on peoples head.

Some peoples always say he/she loves who, this & that but the question is do u love yourself. Loving ourself is the 1st priority, if u think this is selfish u are totally wrong concept. Just Imagine if u are full of wound can u take care of another persons. If our sport athlete dont take care of his own body how he gonna fight for our country?

The Role

Suddenly a people came to ask u. What do u think i am. What is my role. what is this role for u??? This question came from your mom. What would u say??? Anyone got some good comments???

Anger is stupid

Have u ever watch a movie till your tears drop, isnt the movie very touching or very romantic or very meaningful or u like it too much. The answer is hell no... nothing related at all. It is because the character in this movie reflects the one u hated. The face look a like with the one u hated. The character done a lot of mistakes but that character is being forgave n that character is so innocent maybe that character dint mean it. Sometimes i hurt myself because i hate someone too much when that movie reflect a similar face it will make u awake "y are u so angry"? This people wasnt that bad.. this people may have some good side. This people dint mean to hurt you. Maybe they will help u when u in need of help. Eventually hate someone is just the same u hating yourself why dont we just give our heart a lot of break so u can focus on our own future not just blinded by the stupid things which we can live n live without. This happened when i watch Step Up Revolution, I may staring at the screen but my mind was somewhere else. Its not a very moral educated film but strange it give me some kind of message.

Olympic Badminton 2012

Our Malaysia Champion says sorry for losing the fight. My eyes wet & it really breaks our heart when the truth is our country has lost, The point is just close like no distance. Our Dato Lee represent Malaysia to fight for the glory. Some peoples may say that he do it for the money. Some peoples are waiting for the public holiday if he won. Some peoples are silly, said that is not fair just only rewarding Lee only, the fate is if we dont reward him who else should we reward because he's the only one who can fight until final. I've been wanting Dato Lee to win for so many years. What i saw from the twitter they said Lee united Malaysian's heart. Yeah, i do agree. He dint get the gold in front of the world but he has won our heart with his never dies spirit. The lose make us United. So at least we still gain n win something on the other hand. Our country always want us to be united so Dato Lee show us THIS IS IT. So i think Dato Lee did a very good job. I never know so many people support Malaysia. Malaysia dint get into the record book for no.1 but i cant forget so many peoples standing in front of the public TV just to support their own country. Maybe it just united us for 1 hour but the satisfaction was really great. Awesome. The Shout. The support. The fight. The smash. The tears. I enjoy that moment more than world cup or euro cup. Thanks to our Dato Lee the legend. We have done the right thing this time which is support our own country.